实习医生格蕾第五季

周六的早晨，睡到自然醒却还是只到八点半，吃过早饭，于是打开昨晚下完的GA S05 Finale。

Here's to the Future [5.23]
Meredith (opening voiceover): When something begins, you generally have no idea how it’s going to end. The house you’re going to sell becomes your home, the roommates you were forced to take in become your family and the one night stand you were determined to forget becomes the love of your life.

Meredith (closing voiceover): We spend our whole lives worrying about the future, planning for the future, trying to predict the future, as if figuring it out will cushion the blow. But the future is always changing. The future is the home of our deepest fears and wildest hopes. But one thing is certain when it finally reveals itself. The future is never the way we imagined it.

Now or Never [5.24]
Meredith (opening voiceover): Doctors spend a lot of time focused on the future, planning it, working toward it. But at some point you start to realise your life is happening now. Not after med school, not after residency, right now. This is it. It’s here. Blink and you’ll miss it.

Meredith (closing voiceover): Did you say it? 'I love you. I don't ever want to live without you. You changed my life.' Did you say it? Make a plan. Set a goal. Work toward it, but every now and then, look around; Drink it in 'cause this is it. It might all be gone tomorrow."
以上是这两集的开场白和结束语。

其实，从看第五季开始，已经很久没有为了GA掉泪了，记得曾经刚开始看的时候，几乎是集集感动到一把鼻涕一把泪。从2007年的寒假开始，追这部剧已经有两年多了，这期间找到感动，找到安慰，找到共鸣，找到一些生活的答案。原来你已经陪我走了这么远。

由于Burke的中途离开，让剧集开始受到第一轮打击，之后演员进进出出，不断的加入新面孔又不断的被否定掉，只是还好还好，那最初的MAGIC五人组还在，Meredith，Alex，George，Izzie，Christina，从他们刚刚踏入SGH那一刻起，一直到现在，从实习医生，到住院医生，这一路走来，发生了太多太多，一起经历了太多太多，而屏幕这边的我们，也跟着他们一起成长。一度很感激编剧大妈写出这么漂亮的剧本，让我找到一部可以付出感情去看的剧集，不管是幽默也好，感动也罢，甚至是Mere那Dark&Twist的黑暗内心，它们都是那么多真实流畅，带给我们欢笑与泪水都是那么的自然而然，没有任何做作的成分。

我们是真的爱这个剧集，爱里面的每一个演员，不管是Dark&Twist的Mere，还是曾经的“混世魔王”Alex，还是老实却带点傻气的George，抑或是热情善良却总是会感情用事的Izzie，甚至是有些自私极具竞争力却只敢对睡梦中的Burke表白的Christina，以及刀子嘴豆腐心的Baily，永远都有漂亮发型的McDreamy，拥有超Hot身材的Mark Salon，劳心劳力却也老谋深算的Chief，敢爱敢恨的Callie，还有温情宽容的Burke，以及被情所困远走迈阿密的Addison……

在这部剧集里，有太多的回忆。它陪伴我走过了大学的两年时光。我们就如同SGH里的MAGIC一样，面对成长的困惑，面对压力，面对琐碎小事和矛盾，面对选择，面对学业中的诸多难题。那时的我们，每天从食堂里买了饭，拎到宿舍，然后打开各自电脑，看各自追的电视剧，有时会抱着笔记本到床上看完了睡个午觉，而那样的日子，已经再也碰不到了。

而这两集Season Fianle，我并没有想到会是这样的结局。我也能理解，这是因为TR Knight和Katherine Higle两个演员跟剧组之间的问题，但是如果再为了这些合约或者不合的问题开走重要演员，我的心真的要碎了。



我本以为会是皆大欢喜的一集，因为Mere和Derek总算是结了婚，虽然只是便签纸上的誓词，但却温情感人。我以为Izzie终于成功的挺过了手术也恢复了记忆，可以跟Alex开始幸福的生活，可谁会知道几句话之后便是她垂下的手臂。我以为大妈安排George去伊拉克参军就是给他的最好结局，如果他不能继续参演，至少他是战场上的Hero，只是谁又会想到那个血肉模糊的无名氏会是George，难道真的要让他死去才是最好的结局吗？

当Izzie穿着礼服，George穿着军装，站在电梯内外对视彼此的时候，所有的一切就好像回到了第一季大家刚刚相识一般，无数镜头在脑海中一闪而过，不，不要有人以死亡的方式离开，这是所有fans都不想看到的结果，不管是Izzie还是George，不要有任何一个人死去，尽管我知道这是自我安慰而已，当画面泛白，一切静默，Mere的最后一句It might all be gone tomorrow，一切可能都会在明天灰飞烟灭，我和所有人一样，泪流满面的傻在了屏幕前。

我知道这是剧情需要，因为合约问题，所以这样的开放式结局，下一季演员的去留就可以有合理解释，演员走角色死，演员留角色活，可是，我们怎么办？五个人，少了两个，或者少了一个，他们就不再是MAGIC了，不是么？

心里从没像这次这么难受过，一切答案只能等到9月份的S06开播，还有四个月时间，这是何等纠结的等待。

我知道，人来了人又走了，天下没有不散的筵席，就如同当年离开的Burke，只是，我还是衷心希望，不要再这样，不然，我们会追的很辛苦很绝望，因为不舍，所以不能放弃，可是，少了G&I的GA，还是当初我们钟爱的GA吗？

看完GAs05final我彻底feaking out了。。。
John Doe is George
sweet，kind George
！！！！！！！！！！
 
太残忍了 太残忍了
我以为最多就是Izzie来个病情反复然后翘翘，
那么我也勉强可以接受毕竟之前已经做了那么多心理准备
我以为结局走的是温情路线
to love each other even when we hate each other
no running...ever
to take care when old, senile and smelly
this is forever
当时有点担心那张post-it会掉下来
我还教导自己别那么阴暗了
因为连mere都那么灿烂了
甚至甚至
千年化石christina都学会了拥抱说I love u
谁都瞬间对未来充满了希望
突然残忍的就来了
the future is never the way we imagined it
 
George 你小子脸怎么都烂成那样了啊
还剃了头穿上军装一脸俊俏的样子站在电梯口等Izzie
这对比太强烈了
搞笑啊 做梦啊 灵魂出窍啊
你不用这样我都已经觉得最近你变帅了
这都是假的都是虚幻的
快回来吧快回来吧快回来吧
把Izzie也一起拽回来吧
！！！！！！！！！！
 
did you say it?
i love you
 
md
找谁说去啊
你个伪温情路线

It feels so good to stay at home all day watching the shows you like. I can't complain about anything right now. 'Cause I actually feel really good, even my toughest anxiety becomes forgettable. I've finally got the chance to finish GA Season 5 today, and after that something drove me so hard to recollect the show from the very beginning as well as recollect the pieces of my life.
　　
　　When I first started watching GA, I've never thought it would mean this big for me. Some shows just not only the entertainment of our life, they're like friends who knew you at the first place and still they're always there giving you a shoulder to cry on. They carry our memories, histories and feelings. GA is the one for me. Maybe it's not the greatest show ever, but for me it's significant. I've been growing with it. I've been growing as every character does. I've been growing with a heart dark and twisty.
　　
　　It is true that when something begins, you generally have no idea how it's gonna end. The future is never what we've imagined.
　　
　　Back from the beginning, Meredith was asking her good looking one-night-standed partner with amazingly attractive hair to leave with a corny embarrassment revealed on her smiling face; Christina was confidently asking about being "selected as the best intern" and whining about Izz's former part time job as a model; George had never gave up being nice or getting close to the others, but he was taken as a joke; Izz was told to do the rectal examination and can't help making her face when she stuck her fingers into the ass of a patient; Doc. Baily was wearing her mushroom head which is subject to very popular criticism even today; Here comes Burke, the perfect guy who resolutely left his fiancée in the wedding ceremony and us in the middle of the show...
　　
　　We can't tell who's the best at the beginning. Meredith lost in the hospital; George panicked in the surgery room being watching and betted on by the other interns, and he got a creepy name "007"; Izz got Baily pissed off by interrupting her nap for a patient who needs antibiotics rather than the reason that someone was dying; Alex was just an arrogant rude jerk.... And I've been there before, panic, complain, lose, freak out, be silly, cocky, selfish and inconsiderate... or even worse. I can't tell whether I can handle my life rightly and bravely at that time neither.
　　
　　None of them have imagined they would become family of each other; None of them have predicted those pains, struggles, changes or those life and death things injected in their life; None of them have realized and expected those massive magnificent changes happening everyday around them; None of them have ever thought they would become this strong to handle the pain, the loss and departure. Just as what Izz said at the last "you don't recognize the biggest day of your life, not until you're right in the middle of it." We don't recognize anything until we're actually experiencing the most of it. Their life keeps growing deep. So does mine. And I'm growing deep too. I don't run away like before, I face things, I stand up on my own, and I handle them. GA is showing and witnessing the histories and changes of my life too.
　　
　　In GA, hospital is a battlefield, and doctors are soldiers. They don't surrender, because they can't. They've been working their ass off for saving lives, or not that great, just for avoiding mistakes and killing. But what they're doing is sacred. All of the stories going on in this show carry only one clue ---- take the time to treasure. I'm gonna quote the last voice-over in the end of Season 5, and I'm gonna ask myself and everyone else who reads this article:
　　
　　Did you say it? "I love you. I don't ever wanna live without you. You changed my life..." Did you say it? Make a plan, set a goal, work toward it, but every now and then, look around, drink it in. 'Cause this is it. It might be gone tomorrow.


【拼写错误已修正，见谅】

好吧！我承认！我承认我很脆弱！我承认看到第五季的最后两集哭的撕心裂肺！
我跟彤彤和大姐说，这部剧用一个字概括就是“乱”，用三个字（“第一次”知道意思的笑笑，不知道的飘过！）就是“婚外恋”。真的，彤彤说或许是因为美国的开放大家都很“who cares”的态度。但不是，就像心理医生说的那个洛城的丧偶的帅哥男医生(抱歉，忘记他的名字）只是用性来逃避，来转移注意力。或许他、她、他们、她们都是这样!
但是在这里我看到mark竟然想安顿下来，而不是继续做hook！（但是我很不喜欢他跟little grey在一起，不是很配：而且她应该还喜欢O'Malley才对，难道他退出剧组她就轻易淡忘？）
而meredeith终于在eq方面有了重大的成长，当然这种成长总是与各种变故有关，从一开始的第一季第一个镜头就注定要在一起的一对终成眷属。
O'Malley他真是个不幸的小子，暗恋meredeith只换来一夜激情，冲动之下跟callie结婚，发现爱的是izzie结果证实只是最好的朋友的那种爱，被little grey暗恋还浑然不知，申请去当战地医生结果为了救人被车撞成“无名氏”，现在生死未卜，不过十有八九是要挂掉啦！
izzie对病人的感情永远热忱而质朴，当然除了denny那一次。一直打工让自己上学，上学时怀孕把孩子给别人抚养（这条线索还有待展开，是考验她与alex的关键一步，推测她在第六季不会挂！），找到true love，即使是她幻觉中的denny回来也最终不会动摇（当然，一点点还是在所难免，人之常情啊！），她在第五季倒数第二集的自白堪称经典，将会与最后一集一起永远的留在我的电脑中。
alex看起来倒是很能把性和爱分开，他的父亲，他的家庭，还有很多未解之谜。他结婚典礼的独白真实不做作！（最爱的还是burke的那段，可惜...个人觉得他一定会回来，以考验yang和那位）
cristina野心勃勃，每天第一个到医院为了抢到最好的病人，竟然从未逃过课，与教授有过3年的密切关系，被抛弃后打击很大，尽管从未给她正面描写但，从她小心翼翼的开始新一段感情就可以预料到，但是就是这样的她才能造就登上医学杂志封面的burke，才能让已经出离麻木的XX（抱歉，再次忘记他的名字）说出：“I Love U.”
Bailey我超爱，就是太爱哭，抱着Shepherd哭，抱着Richard哭，诶，压力太大啦！估计第六季会和老公离婚，迎来新的春天，她是目前为止还没有乱搞过的！希望她能保持，当然只是希望。
Richard也是纠结在Adele和Susan Grey之间，诶，天天在医院工作到深夜，难怪只能...
好~回到撕心裂肺的话题！之所以会变成那样，可能还是我的心境跟alex很像，眼睁睁的看着心爱的人即将无疑地自己而去。在这里，我心中的这个人是我的爷爷，还记得他做的萝卜条汤，还记得他给我讲的朝鲜战争，可是今年过年的时候，我去看他，他瘦弱的身躯吃力地从沙发上起身，朝我一步步挪动，当他喊起我的名字时眼睛里已经充满了泪水。霎时间，我才真正的意识到他老了，不再能骑着自行车去遛狗，不再能在院子里种我最爱吃的绿色无公害小柿子和开满我家大水塘的粉色荷花。我知道，他不久就会离开我，我知道，我真的知道！那种无力感！我对他死亡的恐惧就已经让我战栗如此，我不敢想象...
妆花了，不写了。

一直挂在Christina房间里面的风扇安静而淡定，它悠悠的转着，但它好像也是一颗藏在人心中的地雷，不光光是hunt，也不光光看izzi和George。
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浮躁而跃动的人生是会被时间沉淀成最真挚的痴情，derek去求婚求市政厅也抵不上一张即使恨我也要爱我不管我臭我丑我老这样烂俗的誓言。grey发现想去忘记derek逼到自己去看心理医生发现自己再怎么去逃避生活去忘记母亲爱到深处的欲自杀，她也要放下自尊去和derek面对面一次又一次去实验她的手术也是一种对爱的尝试，当最后一次肿瘤中植入病毒成功，香槟是两个人对彼此爱情的肯定不仅仅是一次成功的临床手术。而蜡烛造的一个房子抛开母亲的日记本是grey要准备迎接生活抛开腐烂的家庭的诠释。
Christina的婚礼戏剧性并且也在意料之中，离开burke的Christina在浑噩之后遇到了红毛性感的hunt。Christina犹如一朵战火玫瑰，不在战场却时刻用锐刺保护自己的自尊心咄咄逼人但却柔软地把情感赤裸裸袒露在荆棘之下。hunt离开胆小怯懦的未婚妻找到Christina我竟然觉得如此有爱，Christina在hunt面前从不说burke，她不想被同情但她好像又身处于burke离开她之后会遇到的那个女人。所以她吞吞吐吐把“我爱你”说出来时，是把一切抛之脑后毅然决然的沉入hunt的表现。
OK，最虐心的是izzi和denny和Alex和George。中间我一度觉得denny的出现很烦人，既然死了就不要出现既然选择离开就不要喋喋不休，选择暗处看着izzi幸福或者悲伤不好吗？可是当癌症的剧情出现的时候，我有些同情denny，他在天堂和地狱里来哄着眼眶一遍又一遍对izzi说“I come for you "，denny眼睛闪亮而真诚他是在频死的izzi面前想要留在她的身边即使因为那一颗肿瘤，他是izzi的情人是沙滩上蓝天下那一抹最美的幻境。而George是好友，是婚礼上扶着izzi最真挚的朋友。最后一集真的被虐哭了，去参加晚会的izzi一袭盛装电梯之后是戎装在身的George，临死前想到的竟然George！！浓稠却也清纯的友谊，像那一瓶不该喝的红酒。Alex是个好男人，始终背着母亲往事活着所以他畏惧也习惯照顾女人，他发狂也是有理由的，他渴望一段安定的感情却被生活玩弄的体无完肤。<图片1>